I got a FREE 1 year subscription to Pink Sofa, a lesbian dating website! So fucking awesome! I can e-mail and chat with people-so fucking awesome! XD I was going through some profiles the other day and my heart just about stopped because one of them belonged to Lisa. Heh...it was 5 years old, LOL. I wanted to read it but if there was any way that she would receive an e-mail saying "so and so has viewed your profile" then I didn't want to. So I checked and checked until I was absolutely sure they don't send out those types of e-mails and viewed her profile without care. *sigh* I know it's going to take some time to empty my romantic feelings for her from the waste basket of my heart...but even though it doesn't hurt much, it's still annoying and I wish I could have instant gratification. I still find myself getting jealous over seeing her dancing closely with other women or excited if she touches me in any simple way (like the other weekend while we were at Savoy she touched my leg to get my attention to tell me that some of our friends had arrived). I continue to be the kindest, gentlest person I can be with her...partly because I'm a good person but perhaps mostly because I like hearing her approval. "You're sweet," she said to me at the BBQ when I went to find her a fork so she could eat her strawberry cake. I suppose I really would do anything for her-I know that sounds stupidly cheesy and perhaps a tad melodramatic, LOL. Maybe I just want to treasure this fleeting feeling a little bit longer...I'm talking all strange 'cuz I finally finished watching Wedding Peach (the TV series anyway), which has me chock full of "love waves." I wish I had someone to devote my love wave to. Ick, I'm all mushy-wushy now! Well...everyone's always calling me cute and nice so...for sure, there's a woman out there waiting for me! >.< Yo~~~shi!

Grr...still getting over my damned cold. This is the longest time I've ever been sick in a while! I can't sing cuz my voice still sounds like crap Though my throat is no longer sore...and my nose is still running...